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Blog EntryDrunk.Apr 25, '08 7:11 AM
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Lately I have been in a state of drunkenness. How I wish it were from alcohol, but it just isn't. I am drunk with my multiple work (whose multiple incomes I have not tasted yet). I am drunk with love (which is I don't know, I love the idea of being in love but I don't really see myself being in a relationship this time..) . I am drunk with excitement (of the thought of being able to live independently from my parents and from our house). I am drunk.

I continuously complain about my life, but at the same time, I am completely in love with it. That's drunkenness.

In my work as a Web Developer, many people ask me about how I see myself in a couple of years in the IT sector. I do expect those kinds of questions, but I feel weird about answering them at the same time. I am a goal-setter, an output-oriented, systems-creator kind of person - that's why I have to say, I do have goals in this line of work. But at the same time, I am Hedonistic (the way Foucault would explain it), and I live for and with what is pleasure-able - that is why I have to say I am in this work and in other 'works' because I am pleasured by the way they make me feel. But not everyone could get what I am trying to explain. It's rather complicated to answer in just one sentence.

But just the same, the world opens up. It gets bigger and smaller for me everyday. My state of drunkenness is brought about by the liminality I live in. We are all liminal beings - we cannot box ourself in one category because the world is big enough to continue exploring. But the more we explore, the more we realize how small it could get. I am constantly reminded - we live in just one world. And this one world is big enough and small enough for each one to find purpose.

Blog Entry2007: in memoriamDec 31, '07 4:02 AM
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What a year. God has been so good this year even though i havent been good enough. 

graduated from college.
last march, ive been able to finish school. looking back, maybe this was the greatest event that has happened so far this year. being able to march in a graduation ceremony and getting your mock diploma used to elude me. i was also thankful for all the people that ive met, got drunk with, jammed with, cheated exams with, cut classes with, that ive met them along the way. also there were people who doubted me if im able to graduate. i guess ive proved you otherwise. (opening chords from Eraserheads' 'Sa Wakas' begins to play in the background)

redesigned room.
from doing the carpentry to electrical wirings to painting the room.last september, my cousin and i switched rooms. actually this is my original room, but years ago, after i went to a weekend trek to mt. patag, my tito and my 2 cousins had occupied my room even without my permission ( i was just a college sophomore then), since the spare room is too small for them... now, im back here. anyway, i redid the ceiling, redesigned the closet, put in more electric outlets, installed A/C, put dimmer lights, added more sound insulation, repainted the room. now if i can find a way to recoup all the costs involved in this redesign.. hmmm.. its worth it i guess..hehe

religiously saved a fixed amount from monthly salary.
eversince i had my first job, most of the money earned was spent on booze, nightouts, trips, useless material things -- and almost every month, id end up borrowing from my mom (which wala man gakabayran hehe). this year, though, ive been able to save up a good amount of money from my salary and other sources of income from sidelines, rackets, etc.

promoted to full time position at work.
im working as a web developer for an aussie company on a home-office basis. after more than a year of having a 4-hour workday from my work there, because of me being at school, ive been promoted to 8-hours. means my salary would be twice that i receive every month when i was doing the school-work-school stunt. which i started getting 8 hours the next morning after graduation day.

lost phone for the first time.
must. not. drink. too. much. beer. 'nuff said.

planned and implemented sister's dream wedding.
last august, my sister and panoy, her boyfriend of 10 years, arrived from abroad. we had no idea that they'll get married because panoy has to ask mom's permission personally. when mom gave the green light, we scrambled making wedding preparations because theyre only staying for only a month. but in the end, she got the dream wedding normally we filipinos could only see at movies. everything was non-traditional: modern but formal-looking invitations. Pachelbel's Canon in D was the bridal march, wedding cake is made with choco-muffins, bridal car is a Volkswagen Beetle, complete with 'Just Married' sign with shoes and tin cans at the rear, motif is all-white, music for the reception is classical music, etc.


Blog Entryon keeping what you've gotDec 13, '07 10:33 AM
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I don't want to pick on my close friends. Ive harassed them long enough when since we were too young to drink booze and smoke cigarettes -- now that we've grown, I've tried my best to stop teasing them mercilessly about anything. hehe

It's hard.

This Christmas season, a friend bought a brand new cell phone, although his old cell phone works perfectly. His old phone? Not the coolest on the market, not bluetooth compatible, not an MP3 player, but 100% functional.

I wanted to give him a hard time, but I said nothing. I even had to agree with him on the quality of the new phone's camera. It's top notch.

But, it did get me thinking about how often we (as in most people) buy things to replace other things that are in fine working order.

I, for instance, want a new notebook. Mine is slow and old. I won't buy one ... not until this one has died of old age, but that doesn't mean that, in the past, I haven't done just what my friend did last weekend.

We buy things we don't need. We buy duplicates of things we don't need and then toss the first thing we didn't need into the trash.

So, I'm promising myself (especially during the holiday season -- as all my friends and family ask me "What do you want for Christmas?") -- that I'm going to think long and hard about what I truly need. And try even harder to be happy with what I've got.


Blog EntryHeadless at Aftershock 2Oct 28, '07 1:24 PM
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It was our last gig as Headless last october 20 since Michael, our guitarist will be leaving for KSE on the first week of November as well as Oya, the vocalist will be working out-of-town. We had fun and had one beer too many, got drunk on stage, but it was one hell of an experience playing. Props to the organizers! Aftershock FTW!

We've existed for a little over a year but it was a great experience for us -- through friendship and music and alcohol.

more pix after the jump.

Blog Entry "The Last Question" by Isaac AsimovSep 1, '07 9:19 AM
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I'm not much of a SciFi fan but this one's very thought-provoking. It's pretty badass. Read the whole thing when you have time, you will not be dissapointed. Don't just read the ending cause it ruins in. One of the greatest short stories that ive read so far! talking about a deus ex machina!

The Last Question

By Isaac Asimov

     Isaac Asimov was the most prolific science fiction author of all time. In fifty years he averaged a new magazine article, short story, or book every two weeks, and most of that on a manual typewriter. Asimov thought that The Last Question, first copyrighted in 1956, was his best short story ever. Even if you do not have the background in science to be familiar with all of the concepts presented here, the ending packs more impact than any other book that I've ever read. Don't read the end of the story first!
This is by far my favorite story of all those I have written.

     After all, I undertook to tell several trillion years of human history in the space of a short story and I leave it to you as to how well I succeeded. I also undertook another task, but I won't tell you what that was lest l spoil the story for you.

     It is a curious fact that innumerable readers have asked me if I wrote this story. They seem never to remember the title of the story or (for sure) the author, except for the vague thought it might be me. But, of course, they never forget the story itself especially the ending. The idea seems to drown out everything -- and I'm satisfied that it should.


     The last question was asked for the first time, half in jest, on May 21, 2061, at a time when humanity first stepped into the light. The question came about as a result of a five-dollar bet over highballs, and it happened this way:

     Alexander Adell and Bertram Lupov were two of the faithful attendants of Multivac. As well as any human beings could, they knew what lay behind the cold, clicking, flashing face -- miles and miles of face -- of that giant computer. They had at least a vague notion of the general plan of relays and circuits that had long since grown past the point where any single human could possibly have a firm grasp of the whole.

     Multivac was self-adjusting and self-correcting. It had to be, for nothing human could adjust and correct it quickly enough or even adequately enough. So Adell and Lupov attended the monstrous giant only lightly and superficially, yet as well as any men could. They fed it data, adjusted questions to its needs and translated the answers that were issued. Certainly they, and all others like them, were fully entitled to share in the glory that was Multivac's.

     For decades, Multivac had helped design the ships and plot the trajectories that enabled man to reach the Moon, Mars, and Venus, but past that, Earth's poor resources could not support the ships. Too much energy was needed for the long trips. Earth exploited its coal and uranium with increasing efficiency, but there was only so much of both.

     But slowly Multivac learned enough to answer deeper questions more fundamentally, and on May 14, 2061, what had been theory, became fact.

     The energy of the sun was stored, converted, and utilized directly on a planet-wide scale. All Earth turned off its burning coal, its fissioning uranium, and flipped the switch that connected all of it to a small station, one mile in diameter, circling the Earth at half the distance of the Moon. All Earth ran by invisible beams of sunpower.

     Seven days had not sufficed to dim the glory of it and Adell and Lupov finally managed to escape from the public functions, and to meet in quiet where no one would think of looking for them, in the deserted underground chambers, where portions of the mighty buried body of Multivac showed. Unattended, idling, sorting data with contented lazy clickings, Multivac, too, had earned its vacation and the boys appreciated that. They had no intention, originally, of disturbing it.

     They had brought a bottle with them, and their only concern at the moment was to relax in the company of each other and the bottle.

     "It's amazing when you think of it," said Adell. His broad face had lines of weariness in it, and he stirred his drink slowly with a glass rod, watching the cubes of ice slur clumsily about. "All the energy we can possibly ever use for free. Enough energy, if we wanted to draw on it, to melt all Earth into a big drop of impure liquid iron, and still never miss the energy so used. All the energy we could ever use, forever and forever and forever."

     Lupov cocked his head sideways. He had a trick of doing that when he wanted to be contrary, and he wanted to be contrary now, partly because he had had to carry the ice and glassware. "Not forever," he said.

     "Oh, hell, just about forever. Till the sun runs down, Bert."

     "That's not forever."

     "All right, then. Billions and billions of years. Ten billion, maybe. Are you satisfied?"

     Lupov put his fingers through his thinning hair as though to reassure himself that some was still left and sipped gently at his own drink. "Ten billion years isn't forever."

     "Well, it will last our time, won't it?"

     "So would the coal and uranium."

     "All right, but now we can hook up each individual spaceship to the Solar Station, and it can go to Pluto and back a million times without ever worrying about fuel. You can't do that on coal and uranium. Ask Multivac, if you don't believe me.

     "I don't have to ask Multivac. I know that."

     "Then stop running down what Multivac's done for us," said Adell, blazing up, "It did all right."

     "Who says it didn't? What I say is that a sun won't last forever. That's all I'm saying. We're safe for ten billion years, but then what?" Lupow pointed a slightly shaky finger at the other. "And don't say we'll switch to another sun."

     There was silence for a while. Adell put his glass to his lips only occasionally, and Lupov's eyes slowly closed. They rested.

     Then Lupov's eyes snapped open. "You're thinking we'll switch to another sun when ours is done, aren't you?"

     "I'm not thinking."

     "Sure you are. You're weak on logic, that's the trouble with you. You're like the guy in the story who was caught in a sudden shower and who ran to a grove of trees and got under one. He wasn't worried, you see, because he figured when one tree got wet through, he would just get under another one."

     "I get it," said Adell. "Don't shout. When the sun is done, the other stars will be gone, too."

     "Darn right they will," muttered Lupov. "It all had a beginning in the original cosmic explosion, whatever that was, and it'll all have an end when all the stars run down. Some run down faster than others. Hell, the giants won't last a hundred million years. The sun will last ten billion years and maybe the dwarfs will last two hundred billion for all the good they are. But just give us a trillion years and everything will be dark. Entropy has to increase to maximum, that's all."

     "I know all about entropy," said Adell, standing on his dignity.

     "The hell you do."

     "I know as much as you do."

     "Then you know everything's got to run down someday."

     "All right. Who says they won't?"

     "You did, you poor sap. You said we had all the energy we needed, forever. You said 'forever.'

     It was Adell's turn to be contrary. "Maybe we can build things up again someday," he said.

     "Never."

     "Why not? Someday."

     "Never."

     "Ask Multivac."

     "You ask Multivac. I dare you. Five dollars says it can't be done."

     Adell was just drunk enough to try, just sober enough to be able to phrase the necessary symbols and operations into a question which, in words, might have corresponded to this: Will mankind one day without the net expenditure of energy be able to restore the sun to its full youthfulness even after it had died of old age?

     Or maybe it could be put more simply like this: How can the net amount of entropy of the universe be massively decreased?

     Multivac fell dead and silent. The slow flashing of lights ceased, the distant sounds of clicking relays ended.

     Then, just as the frightened technicians felt they could hold their breath no longer, there was a sudden springing to life of the teletype attached to that portion of Multivac. Five words were printed: INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR MEANINGFUL ANSWER.

     "No bet," whispered Lupov. They left hurriedly.

     By next morning, the two, plagued with throbbing head and cottony mouth, had forgotten the incident.


     Jerrodd, Jerrodine, and Jerrodette I and II watched the starry picture in the visiplate change as the passage through hyperspace was completed in its non-time lapse. At once, the even powdering of stars gave way to the predominance of a single bright shining disk, the size of a marble, centered on the viewing-screen.

     "That's X-23," said Jerrodd confidently. His thin hands clamped tightly behind his back and the knuckles whitened.

     The little Jerrodettes, both girls, had experienced the hyperspace passage for the first time in their lives and were self-conscious over the momentary sensation of insideoutness. They buried their giggles and chased one another wildly about their mother, screaming, "We've reached X-23 -- we've reached X-23 -- we've --"

     "Quiet, children." said Jerrodine sharply. "Are you sure, Jerrodd?"

     "What is there to be but sure?" asked Jerrodd, glancing up at the bulge of featureless metal just under the ceiling. It ran the length of the room, disappearing through the wall at either end. It was as long as the ship.

     Jerrodd scarcely knew a thing about the thick rod of metal except that it was called a Microvac, that one asked it questions if one wished; that if one did not it still had its task of guiding the ship to a preordered destination; of feeding on energies from the various Sub-galactic Power Stations; of computing the equations for the hyperspatial jumps.

     Jerrodd and his family had only to wait and live in the comfortable residence quarters of the ship. Someone had once told Jerrodd that the "ac" at the end of "Microvac" stood for ''automatic computer" in ancient English, but he was on the edge of forgetting even that.

     Jerrodine's eyes were moist as she watched the visiplate. "I can't help it. I feel funny about leaving Earth."

     "Why, for Pete's sake?" demanded Jerrodd. "We had nothing there. We'll have everything on X-23. You won't be alone. You won't be a pioneer. There are over a million people on the planet already. Good Lord, our great-grandchildren will be looking for new worlds because X-23 will be overcrowded." Then, after a reflective pause, "I tell you, it's a lucky thing the computers worked out interstellar travel the way the race is growing."

     "I know, I know," said Jerrodine miserably.

     Jerrodette I said promptly, "Our Microvac is the best Microvac in the world."

     "I think so, too," said Jerrodd, tousling her hair.

     It was a nice feeling to have a Microvac of your own and Jerrodd was glad he was part of his generation and no other. In his father's youth, the only computers had been tremendous machines taking up a hundred square miles of land. There was only one to a planet. Planetary ACs they were called. They had been growing in size steadily for a thousand years and then, all at once, came refinement. In place of transistors, had come molecular valves so that even the largest Planetary AC could be put into a space only half the volume of a spaceship.

     Jerrodd felt uplifted, as he always did when he thought that his own personal Microvac was many times more complicated than the ancient and primitive Multivac that had first tamed the Sun, and almost as complicated as Earth's Planetarv AC (the largest) that had first solved the problem of hyperspatial travel and had made trips to the stars possible.

     "So many stars, so many planets," sighed Jerrodine, busy with her own thoughts. "I suppose families will be going out to new planets forever, the way we are now."

     "Not forever," said Jerrodd, with a smile. "It will all stop someday, but not for billions of years. Many billions. Even the stars run down, you know. Entropy must increase.

     "What's entropy, daddy?" shrilled Jerrodette II.

     "Entropy, little sweet, is just a word which means the amount of running-down of the universe. Everything runs down, you know, like your little walkie-talkie robot, remember?"

     "Can't you just put in a new power-unit, like with my robot?"

     "The stars are the power-units. dear. Once they're gone, there are no more power-units."

     Jerrodette I at once set up a howl. "Don't let them, daddy. Don't let the stars run down."

     "Now look what you've done," whispered Jerrodine, exasperated.

     "How was I to know it would frighten them?" Jerrodd whispered back,

     "Ask the Microvac," wailed Jerrodette I. "Ask him how to turn the stars on again."

     "Go ahead," said Jerrodine. "It will quiet them down." (Jerrodette II was beginning to cry, also.)

     Jerrodd shrugged. "Now, now, honeys. I'll ask Microvac. Don't worry, he'll tell us."

     He asked the Microvac, adding quickly, "Print the answer."

     Jerrodd cupped the strip or thin cellufilm and said cheerfully, "See now, the Microvac says it will take care of everything when the time comes so don't worry."

     Jerrodine said, "And now, children, it's time for bed. We'll be in our new home soon."

     Jerrodd read the words on the cellufilm again before destroying it: INSUFICIENT DATA FOR MEANINGFUL ANSWER.

     He shrugged and looked at the visiplate. X-23 was just ahead.


     VJ-23X of Lameth stared into the black depths of the three-dimensional, small-scale map of the Galaxy and said, "Are we ridiculous, I wonder in being so concerned about the matter?"

     MQ-17J of Nicron shook his head. "I think not. You know the Galaxy will be filled in five years at the present rate of expansion."

     Both seemed in their early twenties, both were tall and perfectly formed.

     "Still," said VJ-23X, "I hesitate to submit a pessimistic report to the Galactic Council."

     "I wouldn't consider any other kind of report. Stir them up a bit. We've got to stir them up."

     VJ-23X sighed. "Space is infinite. A hundred billion Galaxies are there for the taking. More."

     "A hundred billion is not infinite and it's getting less infinite all the time. Consider! Twenty thousand years ago, mankind first solved the problem of utilizing stellar energy, and a few centuries later, interstellar travel became possible. It took mankind a million years to fill one small world and then only fifteen thousand years to fill the rest of the Galaxy. Now the population doubles every ten years --

     VJ-23X interrupted. "We can thank immortality for that."

     "Very well. Immortality exists and we have to take it into account. I admit it has its seamy side, this immortality. The Galactic AC has solved many problems for us, but in solving the problem of preventing old age and death, it has undone all its other solutions."

     "Yet you wouldn't want to abandon life, I suppose."

     "Not at all," snapped MQ-17J, softening it at once to, "Not yet. I'm by no means old enough. How old are you?"

     "Two hundred twenty-three. And you?"

     "I'm still under two hundred. --But to get back to my point. Population doubles every ten years. Once this GaIaxy is filled, we'll have filled another in ten years. Another ten years and we'll have filled two more. Another decade, four more. In a hundred years, we'll have filled a thousand Galaxies. In a thousand years, a million Galaxies. In ten thousand years, the entire known universe. Then what?"

     VJ-23X said, "As a side issue, there's a problem of transportation. I wonder how many sunpower units it will take to move Galaxies of individuals from one Galaxy to the next."

     "A very good point. Already, mankind consumes two sunpower units per year."

     "Most of it's wasted. After all, our own Galaxy alone pours out a thousand sunpower units a year and we only use two of those."

     "Granted, but even with a hundred per cent efficiency, we only stave off the end. Our energy requirements are going up in a geometric progression even faster than our population. We'll run out of energy even sooner than we run out of Galaxies. A good point. A very good point."

     "We'll just have to build new stars out of interstellar gas."

     "Or out of dissipated heat?" asked MQ-17J, sarcastically.

     "There may be some way to reverse entropy. We ought to ask the Galactic AC."

     VJ-23X was not really serious, but MQ-17J pulled out his AC-contact from his pocket and placed it on the table before him.

     "I've half a mind to," he said. "It's something the human race will have to face someday."

     He stared somberly at his small AC-contact. It was only two inches cubed and nothing in itself, but it was connected through hyperspace with the great Galactic AC that served all mankind. Hyperspace considered, it was an integral part of the Galactic AC.

     MQ-17J paused to wonder if someday in his immortal life he would get to see the Galactic AC. It was on a little world of its own, a spider webbing of force-beams holding the matter within which surges of submesons took the place of the old clumsy molecular valves. Yet despite its sub-etheric workings, the Galactic AC was known to be a full thousand feet across.

     MQ-17J asked suddenly of his AC-contact, "Can entropy ever be reversed?"

     VJ-23X looked startled and said at once, "Oh, say, I didn't really mean to have you ask that."

     "Why not?"

     "We both know entropy can't be reversed. You can't turn smoke and ash back into a tree."

     "Do you have trees on your world?" asked MQ-17J.

     The sound of the Galactic AC startled them into silence. Its voice came thin and beautiful out of the small AC-contact on the desk. It said: THERE IS INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR A MEANINGFUL ANSWER.

     VJ-23X said, "See!"

     The two men thereupon returned to the question of the report they were to make to the Galactic Council.


     Zee Prime's mind spanned the new Galaxy with a faint interest in the countless twists of stars that powdered it. He had never seen this one before. Would he ever see them all? So many of them, each with its load of humanity. --But a load that was almost a dead weight. More and more, the real essence of men was to be found out here, in space.

     Minds, not bodies! The immortal bodies remained back on the planets, in suspension over the eons. Sometimes they roused for material activity but that was growing rarer. Few new individuals were coming into existence to join the incredibly mighty throng, but what matter? There was little room in the Universe for new individuals.

     Zee Prime was roused out of his reverie upon coming across the wispy tendrils of another mind.

     "I am Zee Prime," said Zee Prime. "And you?"

     "I am Dee Sub Wun. Your Galaxy?"

     "We call it only the Galaxy. And you?"

     "We call ours the same. All men call their Galaxy their Galaxy and nothing more. Why not?"

     "True. Since all Galaxies are the same."

     "Not all Galaxies. On one particular Galaxy the race of man must have originated. That makes it different."

     Zee Prime said, "On which one?"

     "I cannot say. The Universal AC would know."

     "Shall we ask him? I am suddenly curious."

     Zee Prime's perceptions broadened until the Galaxies themselves shrank and became a new, more diffuse powdering on a much larger background. So many hundreds of billions of them, all with their immortal beings, all carrying their load of intelligences with minds that drifted freely through space. And yet one of them was unique among them all in being the original Galaxy. One of them had, in its vague and distant past, a period when it was the only Galaxy populated by man.

     Zee Prime was consumed with curiosity to see this Galaxy and he called out: "Universal AC! On which Galaxy did mankind originate?"

     The Universal AC heard, for on every world and throughout space, it had its receptors ready, and each receptor led through hyperspace to some unknown point where the Universal AC kept itself aloof.

     Zee Prime knew of only one man whose thoughts had penetrated within sensing distance of Universal AC, and he reported only a shining globe, two feet across, difficult to see.

     "But how can that be all of Universal AC?" Zee Prime had asked.

     "Most of it," had been the answer, "is in hyperspace. In what form it is there I cannot imagine."

     Nor could anyone, for the day had long since passed, Zee Prime knew, when any man had any part of the making of a Universal AC. Each Universal AC designed and constructed its successor. Each, during its existence of a million years or more accumulated the necessary data to build a better and more intricate, more capable successor in which its own store of data and individuality would be submerged.

     The Universal AC interrupted Zee Prime's wandering thoughts, not with words, but with guidance. Zee Prime's mentality was guided into the dim sea of Galaxies and one in particular enlarged into stars.

     A thought came, infinitely distant, but infinitely clear. "THIS IS THE ORIGINAL GALAXY OF MAN."

     But it was the same after all, the same as any other, and Lee Prime stifled his disappointment.

     Dee Sub Wun, whose mind had accompanied the other, said suddenly, "And is one of these stars the original star of Man?"

     The Universal AC said, "MAN'S ORIGINAL STAR HAS GONE NOVA. IT IS A WHITE DWARF"

     "Did the men upon it die?" asked Lee Prime, startled and without thinking.

     The Universal AC said, "A NEW WORLD, AS IN SUCH CASES WAS CONSTRUCTED FOR THEIR PHYSICAL BODIES IN TlME."

     "Yes, of course," said Zee Prime, but a sense of loss overwhelmed him even so. His mind released its hold on the original Galaxy of Man, let it spring back and lose itself among the blurred pin points. He never wanted to see it again.

     Dee Sub Wun said, "What is wrong?"

     "The stars are dying. The original star is dead."

     "They must all die. Why not?"

     "But when all energy is gone, our bodies will finally die, and you and I with them."

     "It will take billions of years."

     "I do not wish it to happen even after billions of years. Universal AC! How may stars be kept from dying?"

     Dee Sub Wun said in amusement, "You're asking how entropy might be reversed in direction."

     And the Universal AC answered: "THERE IS AS YET INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR A MEANINGFUL ANSWER."

     Zee Prime's thoughts fled back to his own Galaxy. He gave no further thought to Dee Sub Wun, whose body might be waiting on a Galaxy a trillion light-years away, or on the star next to Zee Prime's own. It didn't matter.

     Unhappily, Zee Prime began collecting interstellar hydrogen out of which to build a small star of his own. If the stars must someday die, at least some could yet be built.


     Man considered with himself, for in a way, Man, mentally, was one. He consisted of a trillion, trillion, trillion ageless bodies, each in its place, each resting quiet and incorruptible, each cared for by perfect automatons, equally incorruptible, while the minds of all the bodies freely melted one into the other, indistinguishable.

     Man said, "The Universe is dying."

     Man looked about at the dimming Galaxies. The giant stars, spendthrifts, were gone long ago, back in the dimmest of the dim far past. Almost all stars were white dwarfs, fading to the end.

     New stars had been built of the dust between the stars, some by natural processes, some by Man himself, and those were going, too. White dwarfs might yet be crashed together and of the mighty forces so released, new stars built, but only one star for every thousand white dwarfs destroyed, and those would come to an end, too.

     Man said, "Carefully husbanded, as directed by the Cosmic AC, the energy that is even yet left in all the Universe will last for billions of years."

     "But even so," said Man, "eventually it will all come to an end. However it may be husbanded, however stretched out, the energy once expended is gone and cannot be restored. Entropy must increase forever to the maximum."

     Man said, "Can entropy not be reversed? Let us ask the Cosmic AC."

     The Cosmic AC surrounded them but not in space. Not a fragment of it was in space. It was in hyperspace and made of something that was neither matter nor energy. The question of its size and nature no longer had meaning in any terms that Man could comprehend.

     "Cosmic AC," said Man, "how may entropy be reversed?"

     The Cosmic AC said, "THERE IS AS YET INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR A MEANINGFUL ANSWER."

     Man said, "Collect additional data."

     The Cosmic AC said, 'I WILL DO S0. I HAVE BEEN DOING SO FOR A HUNDRED BILLION YEARS. MY PREDECESORS AND I HAVE BEEN ASKED THIS QUESTION MANY TlMES. ALL THE DATA I HAVE REMAINS INSUFFICIENT.

     "Will there come a time," said Man, 'when data will be sufficient or is the problem insoluble in all conceivable circumstances?"

     The Cosmic AC said, "NO PROBLEM IS INSOLUBLE IN ALL CONCEIVABLE CIRCUMSTANCES."

     Man said, "When will you have enough data to answer the question?"

     The Cosmic AC said, "THERE IS AS YET INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR A MEANINGFUL ANSWER."

     "Will you keep working on it?" asked Man.

     The Cosmic AC said, "I WILL."

     Man said, "We shall wait."


     The stars and Galaxies died and snuffed out, and space grew black after ten trillion years of running down.

     One by one Man fused with AC, each physical body losing its mental identity in a manner that was somehow not a loss but a gain.

     Man's last mind paused before fusion, looking over a space that included nothing but the dregs of one last dark star and nothing besides but incredibly thin matter, agitated randomly by the tag ends of heat wearing out, asymptotically, to the absolute zero.

     Man said, "AC, is this the end? Can this chaos not be reversed into the Universe once more? Can that not be done?"

     AC said, "THERE IS AS YET INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR A MEANINGFUL ANSWER."

     Man's last mind fused and only AC existed -- and that in hyperspace.


     Matter and energy had ended and with it space and time. Even AC existed only for the sake of the one last question that it had never answered from the time a half-drunken computer [technician] ten trillion years before had asked the question of a computer that was to AC far less than was a man to Man.

     All other questions had been answered, and until this last question was answered also, AC might not release his consciousness.

     All collected data had come to a final end. Nothing was left to be collected.

     But all collected data had yet to be completely correlated and put together in all possible relationships.

     A timeless interval was spent in doing that.

     And it came to pass that AC learned how to reverse the direction of entropy.

     But there was now no man to whom AC might give the answer of the last question. No matter. The answer -- by demonstration -- would take care of that, too.

     For another timeless interval, AC thought how best to do this. Carefully, AC organized the program.

     The consciousness of AC encompassed all of what had once been a Universe and brooded over what was now Chaos. Step by step, it must be done.

     And AC said, "LET THERE BE LIGHT!"

     And there was light --


taken from http://filer.case.edu/dts8/thelastq.htm

Blog EntrysisigMar 16, '07 7:41 AM
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i only found out about the english name of sisig, that is, fried pork face haha i remember seeing some walking along robinson's place hehehe pati ah... here's the recipe for sisig, let's stick to the vernacular, the foreign name sounds weird...

we used to eat almost everyday at taste station hmmm years ago before the dish became so commercialized..then it was mostly pork and less onions, now it's the other way around, and speaking of taste station, it used to be the coolest place to hangout whenever you have to wait for your next class, have lunch, or ogle at the passing girls..hehehe.. now, its changed, before it was one big happy family, we even had a christmas party there for the taste stationers.. i dont know now where can we find the best tasting sisig at bacolod... now that corner outlet near SSA has closed :( nugon

btw, here's the recipe for the sisig.

1 kg pork face
1/4 kg pork brain (optional)
2 tsp. butter
4 pcs. onions, chopped
3 tbsp. soy sauce
1 tbsp. vinegar
1 tbsp. catsup or chili sauce
salt and pepper to taste
fried pork skin, grounded (optional)
1 egg

1. boil pork face till tender; slice thinly into cubes.
2. saute 1 pc. onion in butter and add the sliced pork face and the brain in a deep skillet.
3. while sauteing, mix the liquid ingredients.
4. add the liquid mix in the pan. simmer for about 15 mins.
5. serve in sizzling plate, garnish with fried pork skin and egg.


Blog Entryworks-in-progressJan 29, '07 12:46 PM
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[day job - The Body Shop Australia] The Body Shop International plc, known as The Body Shop, is a British chain of cosmetics stores, now found all over the world. The company's headquarters is situated in Littlehampton, West Sussex, United Kingdom. It was founded by Anita Roddick, noted for selling its own line of products not tested on animals, and produced in an ecologically sustainable manner.













[racket - I/O Asia ] I/O Asia is a joint venture partnership between prominent Bacolod entrepreneurs and one of Canada’s top technology companies. The company aspires to be a people-oriented, technology-driven contact center company that provides outsourced business service solutions for local and foreign clients. They put a premium in customer collaboration through our guiding service principles: people, place, process and product. With the support of the people of Bacolod City, they can help make the City of Smiles truly an important destination for IT investments and global outsourced business services.





Now, if I only have the guts to suggest to my boss to redesign our company's website and have the time to update my portfolio site.

Blog EntryRechargedJan 22, '07 5:46 PM
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Had a quick getaway to cebu during the weekend which coincided with the sinulog festival. The whole trip was a blast!

I was born in Negros Island, a close neighbor of cebu island but in my 24 years, subong lang ko naka lagaw didto. If not for someone else, sigurado I would remain a Cebu City virgin forever.

For years, ilonggo relatives and friends would spend their 2nd-week-of-january-weekend at the Queen City of the South and would come home extremely happy and still toxicated. Wala ko labot. I didn't get what the big deal was, I was never one for the crowd, the people, the fieldtrips. In high school, I wanted to go but i got sick. Went there two years ago, but was there for a grand total of 7 minutes (connecting flight from Davao to Iloilo then to Bacolod), But I went there, after all. It's hard to believe that you could go places just to be with someone. (Now tood man gd gali ang hambal nila parti sina ah.. lolz)

Thanks 'boss' for the company, for taking time out to be with me.. XD, all the things kag and all the places you took me there..ka.gwapa sang tourist guide ko. hehe PRICELESS!! By the way, there's this heavenly siomai that was located near mango avenue. be sure not to miss that when you're in cebu.



 
enchi live at mango square.

 
NFFs on the bus going to cebu [charisse and carlo]


Blog Entrythe lettermen live in bacolodJan 14, '07 9:27 AM
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ronnz and me were hired as PAs (that's production assistants, for you) for the lettermen concert at university of st. la salle coliseum last night, the concert itself was a great experience but what made the event (for me!) memorable is that, in addition for the high TF hehe we got to eat at 21 restaurant and drank booze at l'fisher, all expense paid by the concert promoter (sir aries, thank you very much! sa uulitin!)  

also, it is like a break from my monotonous routine of school-computers-work cycle. this is such being my fourth event that i was part of a production team of a show. click the image for the pix.


Blog Entrychristmas giftJan 11, '07 3:47 PM
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got a christmas gift from my boss this christmas and it really arrived here finally! its a lenovo thinkpad for me to use every time ill be needing a quick task to for the company. shown here is with her big sister, my box.

Blog Entry bacolod on IT map!Mar 2, '06 6:28 PM
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a google query on the words, bacolod outsourcing turned up good results. currently, there's three call centers that will expand their business here, and another one to follow. thats good, and in addition to that, the SM is currently constructing a mall at the reclamation area... hopefully there'll be more jobs here to prevent the 'migration' of college graduates to either cebu, manila, or even dubai.

a friend, has been recently featured on inq7. its Von Caberte. and if any of you have played, bookworms from yahoo games, its creator, PopCap Games employs Von for the illustrations on the games, one of which is Bonnie's Bookstore.

heard from the grapevine:
An outsourcing company is planning to set up an office at VaST's former location. There's also another manila-based company looking for home-based IT pros -- preferably Bacolod-based... as you all knew, know, or didnt know before, i used to work at VaST for about a year.. here's my 2001 pic at vast, 3:00 AM...

Blog Entry Birthday Realizations..Feb 24, '06 10:21 AM
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im officially 24 years old. damn.

time keeps on slipping...when you are young you never thing about time. young people have all the time in the world. i forever believe that time extends itself one hour just for kids. they can have more fun than I have to get work done. kids never have to worry about anything except running out of ideas for fun and play. on the same token, we as young adults were once like that; but as we got older things changed little by little. as time passed we gradually had a better understanding of sorts of the challenges that were before us in life. we had to learn how to do all those things that we used to rely upon somebody else to do [mother, father, yayas etc...] so here we were trying to do it ourselves. good or bad, the attempt was supposed to benefit us in some manner. to what extent, we weren't real sure.

our lives are focused on things that are supposed to help us in some way. our work is supposed to supports us or our families whatever the case might be. everything we do and say reflects on us as being a beneficial part of society. in many cases we are looked upon with high standards by family, friends, and community. we have to be able to represent whichever area at any given point in time. all of that responsibility can be hard, if not very difficult to handle by most people. the younger you are the harder is to deal with it. i guess it goes to show that with age comes wisdom. yes, the wisdom of the sages. wisdom that used to be surrounded by unimportant facts and details that as a child never was or served any importance to us. so why now? why is it so easy for us to understand? have we finally become the people that used to hold that position? have we finally come to a realization that life is best lived when you are older? i don't know; but the pieces are slowly falling into place. Seems like things you never thought about seem to happen as you age. parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, etc all begin to pass away. these are the people that you looked up to. these are the people that you remember as being the ones that lifted you up to the sky; played trumpo with; went to an excursion with. these are the people that were supposed to be there for you whenever you needed them. however, somewhere along the line you forgot about the the fact that everybody grows old...even you.

Blog Entry convergence devices sucksFeb 18, '06 5:00 AM
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Been out on the whole saturday afternoon with Ice at robs, there's this new techie boutique from Pos Marketing. My nokia 6100 phone has been dead after countless flights from my PC table to my floor, so I have been window-shopping for phones lately. We chanced upon this sleek orange sony-ericsson walkman phone on the display. mp3 phone with cam. interesting. convergence device. a do-it-all phone. but i have my ipod. my sister's gonna send me an ixus this year. sure it looks up-to-date. people at la salle's gonna stare at me when im fiddling with this gadget. but why bother?

there's been talk of it for years, now - interactive televisions, fridges with internet access, wrist watch PDAs - combining features from multiple services in one device. but the basic problem with convergence is that it is a compromise: you end up with something which does all of the things it is supposed to do, but it does them all less well than a discrete device would.

if you join together a phone, a PDA and an MP3 player you end up with something which does none of these things well: you have a thing which is too big to be a cool phone, too small to be an effective PDA, has too many buttons to be a usable MP3 player, and has too short a battery life to be used for long as any of these things.

it's like a multi-tool or pen knife with too many tools in it: the knife blade is too short to be useful, the scissors are too fiddly to cut for long, and the screwdrivers can't be used for any screw which has been screwed in properly because there's no leverage and the neck keeps bending. Yes, these tools are useful in an emergency, but for day to day use you need an actual toolkit.

the convergence devices are not intended as emergency items, but the features incorporated are just as stunted as the novelty saw in a multi-blade pen knife.

i can't help but think about those huge bloated applicatoin suites that contain more features than anyone can ever use but which run like a long swim in molasses because all of the unwanted feature code gets in the way of the stuff you actually need. my preference is for much smaller programs which plug together any way you want; they all work well on their own, and none of them get in the way of the others.

is there a way around this, to make convergence devices actually usable for all of their features?

i don't know, but until portable power and UI technologies improve to a point where a convergence device isn't just the worst features of all the things it's trying to be, I will be keeping my devices separate.

im bringing my busted unit to C2K. I will add kapatid's 2nd album into my ipod through iTunes. I will wait for the digicam package from abroad.

im keeping my PhP18,000 in the bank instead.

Blog Entry Rain, Beer and SexFeb 12, '06 11:04 AM
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Ahh...no better combination to top off a rather supendous week(even if I do say so myself).

I haven't been spending as much time infront of this computer, which must mean I'm finally getting a life (god forbid).

Yes, under that veil of techie-like knowledge hides a guy who is really quite shy and abit unsure of himself. I come across quite confronting and sarcastic to some people, yet others think I'm sweet and innocent, depending on their perspective.

The truth is, I am a rebel at heart. Yes the style of music im listening to and the fighting spirit say it all.I don't mean to talk myself up at all, but yeah, I guess I'm also abit arrogant.

Just waiting for someone to pull me down a peg or two. Don't think I'll ever meet such a person though. Thought I met one about a year and a half ago, but that turned out to be a goat pellet liquifying in the rain. (incubus' beware! criminal playing in the background)

Don't get me wrong. When I say I want to meet people, I genuinely do. I mean really meet people. And I don't believe in rendezvous or affairs or dates or flings either. I'm practically one-woman-man so you can scrap that idea before it takes graphic form in your delusional little mind. I'm not some those archetype bacolod boinoys looking for abit of action on the side. Just would like to meet someone, a female, that thinks the way I do.

I would say I'm extremely happy but I'm not. Life is not an easy thing. Anyone who tells you it is has to be bullshitting. I'm sure theres more to this asthetic world than meets the eye, and that both excites and disturbs me.

Some people assume that because I do rock at programming and have an impressive web design portfolio and won the best thesis that I have it made. I kid you not, its taken me ages to get to where I am now. Hours of studying, years upon teenage years of self loathing and then finally "getting it" and working with it. Yes I'm smart. I know this. Don't bother to tell me because you're only feeding my supercharged ego.

Some people assume that because I like doing photoshop that im a "computer guy". Tsk.

Give me something that is a radically new concept. Throw it at me, and watch me struggle to embrace it.

Though I might struggle, I will enjoy the challenge.

Nevermind me. Just my subliminal backlog rambling at the moment. It craves release in some form or another. If it found it's way into my dreams I'm sure it would drive me insane. Oh, maybe thats whats happened to me. Would explain alot, I guess.

Anyway, I have said my piece. If you are a similiar person to myself, please say yours.

Blog Entry happy new year!Jan 4, '06 6:50 PM
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Well what do you know its another year. I'm happy that I got a chance to live this long and I thank God that I've have the things that I have. You know seeing some host on TV looking 'tow up from the flow up' because he had had that stroke. I realize that life is precious. And i just wanted to thank God that I've lived through 2005 and I'm living to 2006. I know that this is my Graduation year lol so I'm glad I getting a chance to see it. Its weird that you look on your life and you know you've been living for like it seems like a billion years but its only 23. But I look back and reflect on what I did and I don't regret it because I wouldn't be where I am today. Anyway I'm just glad to see the new year in my final days of youth (as a student). lol listen to me sounding all old. hahahahahaha anyway I'm just glad to be alive and I was just talking about college with my mom and I got to thinking that DANG this is my last days of youth and I'm going to miss it. I going to miss everybody when I do go but such is life you know. Ol' well I don't mind I've had fun in my years of glory. It's time for me to step up and be a man. Yes I said it BE A MAN for some of those who don't think I am. But yeah i have to grow up and do things that I have to be responsible for. Its a trip we all must take. And is time to take mine. Anyway just thought I ought to update. See yah!

Blog Entry 23Dec 22, '05 10:16 PM
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I have a song by The Cure stuck in my head... *shudder*

"But it's much too late" you say
"For doing this now
We should have done it then"
Well it just goes to show
How wrong you can be
And how you really should know
That it's never too late
To get up and go...

Blog Entry flock testing...Dec 6, '05 7:40 PM
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Blog Entry its a wonderful lifeDec 3, '05 8:01 PM
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i have been so busy with school over the last few months, i hadn't really had the time to stop and appreciate everything that was going on around me.

as i am nearing the end of my undergraduate degree, hey, im gonna graduate next october!!! ive been thinking alot about the future and also success. i think that one of the keys to a bright future is to balance personal success with generosity.

i read some work by max weber the other day that struck me as odd. he wrote about how capitalism came about through the religion of protestantism. the prostestants' believed that any man who was successful was so because God had smiled down upon him.


"success is the noblest gift of heaven" - euripides

with his wealth however came a responsibility not to spend that wealth on himself, but to give it away. buying luxeries for oneself was not what God had intended when bestowing wealth upon someone. so the wealthy decided to take the money earned and give some away to others, and take the rest and invest it back into their company. this was the roots of capitalism. so capitalism was built not upon greed, but generosity. This is far from what we know capitalism to be today.

i think much can be taken from this. while i don't agree that wealth should not be spent on the person who makes it, i do think that we should balance what we spend on ourselves, and what we give to others. i think it is ok to buy yourself the things you like to make you happy. in my case, im getting a new PC this christmas for myself. people work hard for their money, and deserve the luxuries it brings. but they should also do their part in helping others, because they have been blessed with everything given to them. each of us has the responsibility to do what we can to help others. so why then are there so many people who dont?

perhaps it is because there are so many people in this world that need help from others that we get overwhelmed, and don't know where to start. however, sitting back and doing nothing only adds to the problem. i think the key is to not let it overwhelm you. as some tv host would always say, "do what you can do"

in that spirit, i decided to do something which i think fits perfectly in the holiday season. im allotting an amount for our church's future site.

Blog Entry no more monday blues!Nov 18, '05 8:07 PM
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i didnt attend my nstp class. instead worked on the tcs.edu.ph site. which has been finished. drew did the nice layout and i was left to do the guestbook and the alumni section of the website, which will ill be paid by bob on monday, and monday also means ill be getting my first paycheck from my aussie job. monday also means that it will be the start of my gym sessions. monday will be the deadline of my IME2 project which almost cost me my job at biko. i did the project on my office hours and boss was left questioning me as to why my work was delayed at day. lols.

monday.
lunes.
20k richer.

Blog Entry cool illusion!!Nov 17, '05 4:10 AM
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If your eyes follow the movement of the rotating pink dot, you will only see one color, pink. If you stare at the black + in the center, the moving dot turns to green. Now, concentrate on the black + in the center of the picture. After a short period of time, all the pink dots will slowly disappear, and you will only see a green dot rotating if you're lucky! It's amazing how our brain works. There really is no green dot, and the pink ones really don't disappear. This should be proof enough, we don't always see what we think we see.

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